Day 10 Check-In

Today is Day 10.  I felt like my skin was looking nicer this morning but now tonight I have a couple blemishes.  I did a couple bentonite clay masks last week and that always goes well with juicing.  I've been totally off caffeine for maybe 4 days.  I've been so busy I'm not really tracking things.  My weight is down 5 lbs to 158.0 lbs. Honestly, I was hoping for better.  I usually drop 10 lbs in the first 10 days.  That day I ate some food probably messed up that process.  I ended up eating today too.  I have really got to prepare better.  I have to take more juices with me than I think I'll need.  The blood sugar crash hits me seemingly out of nowhere.  I was shopping with 2 of my daughters when I suddenly got loopy and shaky & felt really messed up.  Then I realized I was HUNGRY.  We went to Whole Foods and I ate some figs while we shopped and had a few random samples in the store.  I had most of a Divine Pie and a packet of raw cashew butter.  I feel disappointed with myself but not enough to bash myself.  I just wish I had been in a better place.  I need to pay better attention to how often I'm drinking so this kind of thing doesn't happen because when I get too far gone like that juice isn't enough.  I literally felt like I was "gasping for food."  It would be nice to go through the next 30 days without food deviations.  I'm super committed to not starving myself anymore, no matter what that means.  I feel like I have done so much damage to my metabolism with all my stupid dieting.  I know the feeling of deprivation has driven a lot of my overeating, bingeing and cheating on food plans.  So I will just take care of myself.  But I'd like to do a better job of being prepared and making sure I keep up with my juices so this doesn't have to happen again.